Today has been a hard day.. I've been very sad today and am really getting cabin fever I guess... I'm really tired of hearing people complain about how hot it is outside or having to run errands or having to clean the house or having to go to work, etc etc etc I don't want to hear it because I would love to be able to do any of those things! I want so much to be able to go outside for just 5 minutes so Ryan can bring atleast my Madi to come see me...
I asked one of my doctors today if or when I would be able to go outside for a little bit and he basically said never... He said I can't leave this floor. I said okay, he finished up and left.. as soon as the door closed I had a complete breakdown... Thank God Ryan was here.
So here I shall remain until our beautiful babies are born. Tomorrow will be 23 weeks so we are looking at atleast 7 more weeks probably more like 10 more weeks.. I have already been here over 3 weeks.
Maybe tomorrow will be a better, happier day...
Good night
We're pregnant.... with TRIPLETS!
Sunday, May 29, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Things I miss
I love Spring and Summer and hate that I am stuck indoors all day everyday, but it's for a very good reason! Chloe, Sophie, and Hollis are growing as am I! My belly just keeps getting bigger and bigger! Thankfully I'm not gaining weight anywhere else AND I don't have a single stretch mark!
So recently I have been missing a lot of things and they are such simple little things that I took for granted before I was put here... so if you read this don't take the little moments and mundane tasks for granted.. here's what I miss.. there's really no order..
- cuddling with my husband every night
- relaxing in the bath tub (there's only a stand up shower here)
- playing with the puppies and watching them play
- waking up to Zoe's wet nose against my nose then cuddling with her
- Madison cuddling up next to my feet
- kisses from Madi, Bo, and Zoe
- shopping at Target (or anywhere for that matter) - I have had dreams of shopping at Target though...
- teaching my class at MLC
- all of the hugs I received from my kids everyday while working at MLC
- driving
- walking
- being able to do things myself and not needing so much help
- cooking dinner
- having the variety of food at hand to eat whatever I wanted whenever
- grilling
- sitting on the front porch in my rocking chair
- going out to eat
- going to the movies
- getting dressed up
- having more than like 4 outfits that fit
- going to my church
- setting up our nursery
- sewing
- designing new appliques
- going to get manicures and pedicures.. I'm in desperate need of a good pedicure
- walking to the mailbox
- doing my own laundry
- feeding the dogs
- being able to do things for my husband
- gardening.. planting all of my summer flowers
- eating breakfast in bed with Ryan on Saturdays and Sundays
- watching all of our favorite shows together
- being OUTSIDE
- baking
I could go on and on... but really if you are reading this don't complain about the little things you have to do everyday because you never know one day you may not be allowed to do them..
I will be 23 weeks on Monday! One more week til we meet our first goal.. 24 weeks! At 24 weeks I will get steroid shots to boost the babies lung growth. Then our next goal will be 28 weeks.
I found some crochet patterns to make preemie hats so I have been starting to figure those out... I'm hoping to start smocking soon! I want to make their baptismal gowns as well as other outfits but I definitely want to make their baptismal gowns! I also want to start making bows for the girls because of course they will need a bow to match every outfit! :)
I have been trying to figure out what all we still need and it's so hard to make a list when I am not sitting at home in front of the stuff that we already have... I am also trying to figure out how much of everything we will need... it's so hard to know what we will need 3 of or not.. I know for sure that we need 2 more cribs and mattresses but past that I get very overwhelmed... I wish I could go to the store myself and shop for things we need, but for now I'm just ordering things online and surprising Ryan with boxes at the door :) haha
Well it's almost time for night time meds and monitoring... so good night!
Lindsey
So recently I have been missing a lot of things and they are such simple little things that I took for granted before I was put here... so if you read this don't take the little moments and mundane tasks for granted.. here's what I miss.. there's really no order..
- cuddling with my husband every night
- relaxing in the bath tub (there's only a stand up shower here)
- playing with the puppies and watching them play
- waking up to Zoe's wet nose against my nose then cuddling with her
- Madison cuddling up next to my feet
- kisses from Madi, Bo, and Zoe
- shopping at Target (or anywhere for that matter) - I have had dreams of shopping at Target though...
- teaching my class at MLC
- all of the hugs I received from my kids everyday while working at MLC
- driving
- walking
- being able to do things myself and not needing so much help
- cooking dinner
- having the variety of food at hand to eat whatever I wanted whenever
- grilling
- sitting on the front porch in my rocking chair
- going out to eat
- going to the movies
- getting dressed up
- having more than like 4 outfits that fit
- going to my church
- setting up our nursery
- sewing
- designing new appliques
- going to get manicures and pedicures.. I'm in desperate need of a good pedicure
- walking to the mailbox
- doing my own laundry
- feeding the dogs
- being able to do things for my husband
- gardening.. planting all of my summer flowers
- eating breakfast in bed with Ryan on Saturdays and Sundays
- watching all of our favorite shows together
- being OUTSIDE
- baking
I could go on and on... but really if you are reading this don't complain about the little things you have to do everyday because you never know one day you may not be allowed to do them..
I will be 23 weeks on Monday! One more week til we meet our first goal.. 24 weeks! At 24 weeks I will get steroid shots to boost the babies lung growth. Then our next goal will be 28 weeks.
I found some crochet patterns to make preemie hats so I have been starting to figure those out... I'm hoping to start smocking soon! I want to make their baptismal gowns as well as other outfits but I definitely want to make their baptismal gowns! I also want to start making bows for the girls because of course they will need a bow to match every outfit! :)
I have been trying to figure out what all we still need and it's so hard to make a list when I am not sitting at home in front of the stuff that we already have... I am also trying to figure out how much of everything we will need... it's so hard to know what we will need 3 of or not.. I know for sure that we need 2 more cribs and mattresses but past that I get very overwhelmed... I wish I could go to the store myself and shop for things we need, but for now I'm just ordering things online and surprising Ryan with boxes at the door :) haha
Well it's almost time for night time meds and monitoring... so good night!
Lindsey
Thursday, May 19, 2011
Day 14
Today is my 14th day in the hospital! It's going by pretty fast. I am used to the hospital routine, but then again I'm not.. I hate that "dietary" comes in every morning at 7 AM and is so happy and cheery! I am NOT a morning person, and I do appreciate that you are bringing me my cereal and milk BUT do you have to be so happy and cheery!?? haha
Yesterday morning was quite entertaining for me! This is a teaching hospital, and on some days there are nursing students here, and yesterday there were 4.. I had one that had to do her "assessment" on me. She had no clue how to use the monitor to get my blood pressure... So, ME the special ed teacher taught her how to do that! haha Then she couldn't figure out how to get the thermometer off the wall, so.. I showed her how to do that.. Then she had a bunch of questions to ask etc.. She seemed kind of shocked when I answered the question when did you start taking prenatal vitamins? I answered.. with 5 months prior to being pregnant! This was after I told her I was on Clomid. We were trying to get pregnant, and you are supposed to take prenatal vitamins when you are trying! DUH! The earlier you take them the better... Anyways we got through her million questions, she left for a little bit. They all went and watched a C-section, and then my real nurse came in with the 4 students and she taught them how to find fetal heart rates on mommies of multiples. She explained that you can't find one baby at a time... you have to find all 3 at the same time to ensure that you aren't getting the same baby twice. So, 30 minutes later they were able to all coordinate themselves into getting my 3 little ones' heart beats at the same time... It probably didn't help that I had a chicken biscuit and sweet tea for breakfast hahaha I was laughing inside the whole time! The students left and my nurse was like thank you so much for putting up with that I wanted to just take it out of their hands and do it myself like we do every other day! She and I usually tag team it and find all 3 babies pretty quick.. I told her I didn't mind the students as long as they don't come anywhere near me with needles. I will only allow nurses that are extremely qualified and great with shots, IVs etc near me! haha
I had a complete breakdown today at lunch over the horrible cafeteria food.. I have decided that past my cereal and milk in the morning - I will no longer order anything from any one of their menus here!!! I am getting a microwave for my room.. I have no clue if that's allowed, and will battle that out if they tell me I can't have it. It's either they allow it and I am able to eat healthy and I am able to continue to gain weight for my babies OR they take the microwave from me and continue to bring cafeteria crap and I don't eat it and lose weight.. How is that healthy for my babies!? Ryan nor my family can bring me lunch and dinner every day and they shouldn't have to... and I don't want take out or fast food twice a day every day. AND I don't eat just 3 meals a day anymore.. I eat approximately 6 small meals or more every day!! I am eating something every 2-3 hours unless I am sleeping :)
Anyways, I probably sound like a spoiled brat, but I am pregnant with triplets and am picky...
I have started crocheting again and am enjoying that, and I have caught up on all of my favorite tv shows. Thank God they have full episodes on the computer now!
That's all for tonight!
Good night!!
Yesterday morning was quite entertaining for me! This is a teaching hospital, and on some days there are nursing students here, and yesterday there were 4.. I had one that had to do her "assessment" on me. She had no clue how to use the monitor to get my blood pressure... So, ME the special ed teacher taught her how to do that! haha Then she couldn't figure out how to get the thermometer off the wall, so.. I showed her how to do that.. Then she had a bunch of questions to ask etc.. She seemed kind of shocked when I answered the question when did you start taking prenatal vitamins? I answered.. with 5 months prior to being pregnant! This was after I told her I was on Clomid. We were trying to get pregnant, and you are supposed to take prenatal vitamins when you are trying! DUH! The earlier you take them the better... Anyways we got through her million questions, she left for a little bit. They all went and watched a C-section, and then my real nurse came in with the 4 students and she taught them how to find fetal heart rates on mommies of multiples. She explained that you can't find one baby at a time... you have to find all 3 at the same time to ensure that you aren't getting the same baby twice. So, 30 minutes later they were able to all coordinate themselves into getting my 3 little ones' heart beats at the same time... It probably didn't help that I had a chicken biscuit and sweet tea for breakfast hahaha I was laughing inside the whole time! The students left and my nurse was like thank you so much for putting up with that I wanted to just take it out of their hands and do it myself like we do every other day! She and I usually tag team it and find all 3 babies pretty quick.. I told her I didn't mind the students as long as they don't come anywhere near me with needles. I will only allow nurses that are extremely qualified and great with shots, IVs etc near me! haha
I had a complete breakdown today at lunch over the horrible cafeteria food.. I have decided that past my cereal and milk in the morning - I will no longer order anything from any one of their menus here!!! I am getting a microwave for my room.. I have no clue if that's allowed, and will battle that out if they tell me I can't have it. It's either they allow it and I am able to eat healthy and I am able to continue to gain weight for my babies OR they take the microwave from me and continue to bring cafeteria crap and I don't eat it and lose weight.. How is that healthy for my babies!? Ryan nor my family can bring me lunch and dinner every day and they shouldn't have to... and I don't want take out or fast food twice a day every day. AND I don't eat just 3 meals a day anymore.. I eat approximately 6 small meals or more every day!! I am eating something every 2-3 hours unless I am sleeping :)
Anyways, I probably sound like a spoiled brat, but I am pregnant with triplets and am picky...
I have started crocheting again and am enjoying that, and I have caught up on all of my favorite tv shows. Thank God they have full episodes on the computer now!
That's all for tonight!
Good night!!
Tuesday, May 17, 2011
It's been a while...
So, It's been a while since I have been able to write a new blog, and a lot has happened!! So this is going to be very long!!
I was put on moderate bed rest at home on April 21st because the length of my cervix was shortening and beginning to funnel. I remained at home on moderate bed rest for 2 weeks before my cervix shortened more. My maternal fetal specialist put me on hospital bed rest on May 6th. I was devastated! I had not been expecting to be put on hospital bed rest this soon, and Ryan was going to be leaving for Knoxville for State Tumbling Meet that night and my dad and sister were in New Hampshire. I had prepared myself to go on hospital bed rest at the beginning of June. Needless to say, I did not handle this well. I went and had my "last meal" at a restaurant sitting at a real table. Mom and I went to Chipotle for lunch, then went to Baptist Memorial Hospital for Women where I was admitted. They put me in a Labor and Delivery Room for the first couple of days as the Antepartum Unit (unit for the long term hospital bed rest mama's to be) was full. Saturday night (day 2) they moved me to the antepartum unit into a room that I was told they would move me from as soon as they could as it overlooked the lobby so there was no outside window. It was dark and depressing all day! I was told Sunday late afternoon that 2 patients in the unit went into labor and there would be a room with a window to the outside opening up and I would be moved the next morning. Then the night shift started. My nurse didn't come in until almost 10:00 and she informed that if I didn't move that night then I would probably not be able to get the room. I asked her if she would help me pack up and move my stuff as it was late at night, Ryan was home and I didn't want him to drive 30 minutes in to help me move for 5 minutes then drive 30 minutes back home - a complete waste of gas - when it is in my opinion the nurses job to help me. My mom couldn't come either because Clark was in bed, and she couldn't leave him alone. Anyways, when I asked my nurse if she would help me move she gave me a look like umm no and said if she wasn't busy then she might be able to help me get my stuff together. She then left the room to go check on another patient and ask housekeeping how much longer it would be before they finished cleaning the room I was to be moved into... She came back to me about 45 minutes later. In the mean time I waited a little bit to see if she was going to come back and help me.. she never did so I packed up my suitcase with my clothes, and got all of my bags, toiletries, etc together by myself. She came in a little after 11:00 with a cart and said I will try and get most of your stuff moved over to your new room, but we may have to leave some in here... I gave her a look like WTF! No you won't be leaving half of my stuff in one room and wheeling me into another room with the other half of my stuff! No freaking way! I think she got the point with my look and moved all of my stuff to the other room dumping the bags wherever she pleased then wheeled me into the room and I never saw her again that night! The next morning I told my new nurse what had happened and she was in complete shock! She asked me what her name was etc.. I told her that she never introduced herself to me and didn't have her hospital name badge on! I knew I had done to much the night before and was terrified that my cervix was going to be even shorter... I had an ultrasound already scheduled for that day and new that if it was shorter than before that I was going to have to have a cervical cerclage (where my doctor would surgically stitch my cervix together). I went for the ultrasound and it had shortened to approximately 7 mm!!!! 3 days prior at rest my cervix was 4.5 CM at rest and 1.5 CM under pressure. Later that day, right before the day shift was over I asked my nurse who my nurse would be that night. She went and looked and it was the same nurse that I had had the night prior. I told her I didn't want her anywhere near me. She said okay no problem and completely understood... I got to speak with the Head Nurse and explained to her what happened. She reassured me that she would never be my nurse again. My specialist came in that evening and informed me that I was going to have the cervical cerclage the next day. They started an IV for fluids and antibiotics and informed me that the operating room was booked for 5:30 the next night and I would not be able to eat after 9:00 AM!!!!!!
I also received my first 17P shot that I have to get weekly to help prevent preterm labor. It's a horribly painful shot in your hip that takes between 2 and 4 minutes to administer because it is as thick as motor oil. I had a complete breakdown that night...
Tuesday at 5:30 in the morning, I woke up with contractions. My nurse put me on the contraction monitor and I had 5 contractions in 30 minutes!! They gave me a shot and thankfully stopped the contractions! I made it through Tuesday without a complete breakdown until they took me into the operating room at 5:30 got me up on the table to do the epideral - then I completely lost it. I got through the epideral, they laid me down on the operating table, and I lost complete feeling from about my hips or so down. That is the weirdest feeling ever. They put my legs in stirrups, prepped me for surgery, and did the procedure. I laid there with tears streaming down my face throughout the entire procedure - not because I was in pain but because I was overcome with the most humiliating feeling ever. It was a fairly quick procedure. I went to recovery where over an hours time I slowly regained feeling from my waist to my toes. As soon as I had feeling back, they took me back to my room where my family was waiting. Dad went out and got Chick-fil-a for me. Ryan stayed with me, took care of me, and went home after I fell asleep. He was absolutely amazing to help me get through all of that! I have the most amazing husband in the world!!
I remained on IV antibiotics twice a day for 7 days to prevent infections.. Today, I received my last dose of IV antibiotics and FINALLY got to get my IV out of my hand!!!
I now only have a couple contractions a day which they say is completely normal since my uterus is already stretched to full term if I was having one baby.
I am handling hospital bed rest okay... I have my moments where I want to throw the door open and run out the door, but I don't. I miss my husband very much!!! It is really hard not being able to sleep in the same bed with him. He has been very busy with work, and he has been very stressed. He has been doing a lot of cleaning and beginning to get things set up for the babies at home! He has set up the pack'n'play in our bedroom where they will sleep for a while when they first come home. He has also been getting the rooms upstairs moved around and started to set things up.. He keeps sending me pictures of what he has done and set up. It's really hard for me to just sit here in this bed when I want to be home helping set the crib up and organizing the baby things.. but I have to keep reminding myself that I am doing something very important here.. I am growing and nourishing 3 babies!
My church has been very supportive, and my priest, Fr. Kenny, is coming every week to pray with me and bring me Holy Communion. I am so thankful for that since I am not able to go to mass every Sunday now. I have had days where visitors are coming and going all day and it really helps pass the time and helps me keep my spirits up, but then again I never get an opportunity to rest which is what I am in here for.. Other days, no one comes all day long... I wish there was a way to balance it out, but so far not many people have told me when they are coming so there really is no way for me to balance it out.
Now that I have my IV out of my hand, I am hoping to blog every day so that I will be able to go back and read this or have it for our babies to read when they are older so they know how they came into this world!
That's all for today...
Lindsey
I was put on moderate bed rest at home on April 21st because the length of my cervix was shortening and beginning to funnel. I remained at home on moderate bed rest for 2 weeks before my cervix shortened more. My maternal fetal specialist put me on hospital bed rest on May 6th. I was devastated! I had not been expecting to be put on hospital bed rest this soon, and Ryan was going to be leaving for Knoxville for State Tumbling Meet that night and my dad and sister were in New Hampshire. I had prepared myself to go on hospital bed rest at the beginning of June. Needless to say, I did not handle this well. I went and had my "last meal" at a restaurant sitting at a real table. Mom and I went to Chipotle for lunch, then went to Baptist Memorial Hospital for Women where I was admitted. They put me in a Labor and Delivery Room for the first couple of days as the Antepartum Unit (unit for the long term hospital bed rest mama's to be) was full. Saturday night (day 2) they moved me to the antepartum unit into a room that I was told they would move me from as soon as they could as it overlooked the lobby so there was no outside window. It was dark and depressing all day! I was told Sunday late afternoon that 2 patients in the unit went into labor and there would be a room with a window to the outside opening up and I would be moved the next morning. Then the night shift started. My nurse didn't come in until almost 10:00 and she informed that if I didn't move that night then I would probably not be able to get the room. I asked her if she would help me pack up and move my stuff as it was late at night, Ryan was home and I didn't want him to drive 30 minutes in to help me move for 5 minutes then drive 30 minutes back home - a complete waste of gas - when it is in my opinion the nurses job to help me. My mom couldn't come either because Clark was in bed, and she couldn't leave him alone. Anyways, when I asked my nurse if she would help me move she gave me a look like umm no and said if she wasn't busy then she might be able to help me get my stuff together. She then left the room to go check on another patient and ask housekeeping how much longer it would be before they finished cleaning the room I was to be moved into... She came back to me about 45 minutes later. In the mean time I waited a little bit to see if she was going to come back and help me.. she never did so I packed up my suitcase with my clothes, and got all of my bags, toiletries, etc together by myself. She came in a little after 11:00 with a cart and said I will try and get most of your stuff moved over to your new room, but we may have to leave some in here... I gave her a look like WTF! No you won't be leaving half of my stuff in one room and wheeling me into another room with the other half of my stuff! No freaking way! I think she got the point with my look and moved all of my stuff to the other room dumping the bags wherever she pleased then wheeled me into the room and I never saw her again that night! The next morning I told my new nurse what had happened and she was in complete shock! She asked me what her name was etc.. I told her that she never introduced herself to me and didn't have her hospital name badge on! I knew I had done to much the night before and was terrified that my cervix was going to be even shorter... I had an ultrasound already scheduled for that day and new that if it was shorter than before that I was going to have to have a cervical cerclage (where my doctor would surgically stitch my cervix together). I went for the ultrasound and it had shortened to approximately 7 mm!!!! 3 days prior at rest my cervix was 4.5 CM at rest and 1.5 CM under pressure. Later that day, right before the day shift was over I asked my nurse who my nurse would be that night. She went and looked and it was the same nurse that I had had the night prior. I told her I didn't want her anywhere near me. She said okay no problem and completely understood... I got to speak with the Head Nurse and explained to her what happened. She reassured me that she would never be my nurse again. My specialist came in that evening and informed me that I was going to have the cervical cerclage the next day. They started an IV for fluids and antibiotics and informed me that the operating room was booked for 5:30 the next night and I would not be able to eat after 9:00 AM!!!!!!
I also received my first 17P shot that I have to get weekly to help prevent preterm labor. It's a horribly painful shot in your hip that takes between 2 and 4 minutes to administer because it is as thick as motor oil. I had a complete breakdown that night...
Tuesday at 5:30 in the morning, I woke up with contractions. My nurse put me on the contraction monitor and I had 5 contractions in 30 minutes!! They gave me a shot and thankfully stopped the contractions! I made it through Tuesday without a complete breakdown until they took me into the operating room at 5:30 got me up on the table to do the epideral - then I completely lost it. I got through the epideral, they laid me down on the operating table, and I lost complete feeling from about my hips or so down. That is the weirdest feeling ever. They put my legs in stirrups, prepped me for surgery, and did the procedure. I laid there with tears streaming down my face throughout the entire procedure - not because I was in pain but because I was overcome with the most humiliating feeling ever. It was a fairly quick procedure. I went to recovery where over an hours time I slowly regained feeling from my waist to my toes. As soon as I had feeling back, they took me back to my room where my family was waiting. Dad went out and got Chick-fil-a for me. Ryan stayed with me, took care of me, and went home after I fell asleep. He was absolutely amazing to help me get through all of that! I have the most amazing husband in the world!!
I remained on IV antibiotics twice a day for 7 days to prevent infections.. Today, I received my last dose of IV antibiotics and FINALLY got to get my IV out of my hand!!!
I now only have a couple contractions a day which they say is completely normal since my uterus is already stretched to full term if I was having one baby.
I am handling hospital bed rest okay... I have my moments where I want to throw the door open and run out the door, but I don't. I miss my husband very much!!! It is really hard not being able to sleep in the same bed with him. He has been very busy with work, and he has been very stressed. He has been doing a lot of cleaning and beginning to get things set up for the babies at home! He has set up the pack'n'play in our bedroom where they will sleep for a while when they first come home. He has also been getting the rooms upstairs moved around and started to set things up.. He keeps sending me pictures of what he has done and set up. It's really hard for me to just sit here in this bed when I want to be home helping set the crib up and organizing the baby things.. but I have to keep reminding myself that I am doing something very important here.. I am growing and nourishing 3 babies!
My church has been very supportive, and my priest, Fr. Kenny, is coming every week to pray with me and bring me Holy Communion. I am so thankful for that since I am not able to go to mass every Sunday now. I have had days where visitors are coming and going all day and it really helps pass the time and helps me keep my spirits up, but then again I never get an opportunity to rest which is what I am in here for.. Other days, no one comes all day long... I wish there was a way to balance it out, but so far not many people have told me when they are coming so there really is no way for me to balance it out.
Now that I have my IV out of my hand, I am hoping to blog every day so that I will be able to go back and read this or have it for our babies to read when they are older so they know how they came into this world!
That's all for today...
Lindsey
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